Should’ve, would’ve, could’ve is the root of senseless guilt. I…
…should’ve pushed him to see the doctor sooner.
…would’ve been a better husband if only…
…could’ve been more understanding.
…should’ve known better.
…would’ve had our water tested if…
…could’ve driven mom to the doctor that time if only…
All of these things have a way of pulling us back into the past when what we need to be focused on are today and tomorrow.
We spent years wondering just what it was that caused my husband’s cancer. This is pretty common. It’s our way of trying to make sense of something so senseless. We’ve picked through his life to try to figure out when the turning point was. He wasn’t a smoker. Was it the pollution in Cairo that spring? It could’ve been radon—or asbestos. He should’ve worn a mask that one time he worked with asbestos 30 years ago.
All of this is fruitless.
We can’t change the past. We’ll go crazy if we keep trying to figure it out. There’s no way of knowing. And if there was, what difference would it make?
Once again I will be doing double duty in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. I will be sharing ways to avoid burnout, here at Facing Cancer with Grace. At Heather Erickson Author/Writer/Speaker, I will share ways of thinking creatively, using Brainsparker’s Kickstart Course of A to Z prompts. I hope you’ll visit me at both sites.
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In 2012 doctors diagnosed my husband, Dan, with stage IV lung cancer. Since then, our family has been learning what it means to face cancer. I’ve focused my writing and speaking on helping cancer patients and their families advocate for themselves and live life to the fullest, in spite of their illness. My goal is to help people face cancer with grace.
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